I am not sure whats got into me today... I feel like I wanted to stab somebody's heart! Or is this a normal feeling of a lonely girl who is scared enough to enter the middle age year.

Many days I have been here... in a land where more and more hypocrites invented and hates occur. I make friends... and find it is easier to get more enemies in the end. I shared stories and interest... and left critisized and humiliated. Those malicious and virus now not only spread via internet and computers... it has been a common illness that less possible to be cured.

Through my undecideable life, I met many intelligents and attractive people, an expert from different background and skills. Who mastered those codes and tricks... who have made to the level of IT JEDI... They type the bits and bytes... and manage to solve the errors. I must say, who won't ever worship those excellent works and effort... especially when they are actually among of your closest friends.

But then, what's wrong with those excellent guys who prefer to laugh out loud over the failure of this one particular person. Torturing him/her for the numerous of false tries... and pointing out their mistakes...

kesian kan???

Coming back to my reality life... life is full of hates and lies!